It's been exactly one month since former 'Bachelorette' contestant Julien Hug shot and killed himself in a remote area of Palm Springs, and his live-in girlfriend Jennifer Bell told Breaking Celebrity News that there is still "tremendous temptation and interest to make sense of the senselessness."

"Not much has changed in my life in the past month, other than utter sadness and emptiness at the loss of my best friend and greatest love."

Hug, 35, was found dead near a highway in Southern California on Nov 3. His death stunned the TV world and left everyone, including Bell, simply asking "Why?"

"Julien is incredibly missed and has left very hard shoes for anyone to fill."

Bell, 35, told Breaking Celebrity News that she lived with Hug for the past two years. They knew each other for a year before they began dating. "We were the light of each other's life. Everyone, I mean everyone loved this man. We lived together in San Diego, in a beautiful condo," she said.

Bell even revealed that she and Hug were discussing marriage.

"We talked about getting married in Montauban, France," she told Breaking Celebrity News. "He even spoke French to me. He spoke the language so eloquently and lovely."

Hug left handwritten notes for his parents Bertrand and Denise Hug, as well as a few close friends, explaining he was suffering from "severe depression" and felt suicide was the only way out.