In one of the most trust-breaking tell-all memoirs ever, Jimmy Connors strongly hints in his new book that his former fiancée Chris Evert aborted his baby.

Nearly 40 years after the couple was scheduled to marry, Connors has decided to spill the deeply personal secret as he attempts to push copies of his book, The Outsider.

Showing exactly why he is an outsider, Connors writes “An issue had arisen as a result of youthful passion, and a decision had to be made as a couple,” according to the New York Post.