Demi Lovato suffered the heartbreaking loss of the father she hadn’t spoken to in years this week and she opened up about his death on Good Morning America where she revealed he had a mental illness.

“I’m handling it ok,” Demi told Robin Roberts about her father Patrick Lovato’s death, saying his death was “difficult.”

The two were estranged for years and just a few weeks before he died Patrick told Breaking Celebrity News that he “loves Demi very much and just wanted his little buddy back.”

The X Factor judge admitted that she wasn’t close with her father, saying: “My father and I didn’t have the most ideal relationship. But at the end of the day he’s still my dad I grew up with him. He was a wonderful person.”

Since her rehab stint Demi’s father had been trying to reach out to her, begging her to talk with him one last time, as he said he suffered from a life threatening cancer, but as of early June he cried as he said they hadn’t spoken in a very long time.