Tamra Barney: Depression Is The 'Hardest Thing I've Talked About' On 'RHOOC'
June 11 2013, Published 3:20 p.m. ET
During the June 10 episode of The Real Housewives of Orange County, Gretchen Rossi asked Tamra Barney why she doesn’t let people get close to her.
Tamra then opened up to Gretchen and explained she is just learning that it's okay for her to explore her feelings.
“Gretchen is that kind of friend that wants to know everything about your life and I am not used to someone like that,” Tamra writes in her June 11 Bravo blog. “She has a real sweetness about her that makes you want to open up.”
But in the past, Tamra was afraid to open up to Gretchen.
“As much as I care about Gretchen, she is the type of person that scares me -- not because she is a bad person but its hard for me open up to people sic,” Tamra explains. “I really do think we have different types of friends for different reasons.”
For example, Tamra maintains a friendship with Vicki Gunvalson because with Vicki, she doesn’t have to get emotionally “deep".
“Vicki and I have gone through a lot of the same adult struggles in life and although we talk about them at the time, we really don't know each other deep inside,” Tamra says. “I think that is why we are so drawn to each other? We live for the moment and forget about the past.”
But at this point, Tamra is trying hard to come to terms with her issues and the past that made her so closed off today.
“Sharing my story about depression has been one of the hardest things I have talked about on this show and something that I was not necessarily even wanting to share,” Tamra says. “At the time, I was overly concerned with my son Ryan, who suffers from anxiety and depression, and it brought back so man