Michelle Duggar always seems to have a smile on her face and a loving tone of voice, but the mother of 19 admits a dark secret that she has – she struggled with an anger problem when her children were young.

The 19 Kids and Counting reality show matriarch made the admission in a new video blog obtained by Breaking Celebrity News where she explained how she overcame her “anxiousness” and “anger” with the help of The Lord.

“I don’t always stay calm,” Jim Bob Duggar’s wife admits.

“Years ago The Lord really broke my heart about my anxiousness and my anger. I think we all struggle with that. The feelings of frustration and anger building up and how do we deal with that?”

Michelle said she found her answer in a Wisdom booklet she was studying with her young children.

“The one point that stuck in my heart, just pierced through my being, was the point about a soft answer turns away wrath,” she described.