Life in the spotlight hasn't been entirely "happy, happy, happy" for every member of Duck Dynasty's Robertson family. In a shocking new interview, Jase and Missy Robertson's 18-year-old son Reed admits how he's struggled to adapt to the family's new fame -- and even contemplated suicide.

"A couple years ago … I guess I just got really caught up in thinking that I was better than everyone else because of who my family was," Reed confesses in a new video interview on iamsecond.com. "… I mean, really, 12 million people watch us every year. Every week actually! I guess that's part of the pressure that's on me."

"I started getting really cynical and looking down on other people," he admits. "And before I knew it, no one was there. Nobody. It eventually led to thoughts of suicide …"

"I had finally hit rock bottom," he says, when former friends stopped inviting him to hang out.

"No one wanted anything to do with a cynical person like me," he explains.

Eventually, Reed admits, "I told my youth minister, I pretty much told him that I wanted to kill myself. I had finally hit rock bottom. I wrote a suicide note and I was gonna do it.