'Tori Deserves Me To Die': Suicide Shocker As Tori Spelling’s Cheating Husband Dean McDermott Reveals He Thought About Jumping Out Of A Window
April 30 2014, Published 7:53 a.m. ET
Tori Spelling’s husband Dean McDermott admitted on Tuesday’s episode of True Tori that he considered suicide during their marriage crisis caused by his infidelities.
On the explosive Lifetime reality show, McDermott told the couple’s therapist that he thought about jumping out the window of her office during a nervous breakdown. But instead, he went into an unidentified treatment facility to deal with his alcoholism and addiction issues.
Spelling, 40, and McDermott, 47, have been wrestling for months with the fallout from his two-day affair with Emily Goodhand in December, which made tabloid headlines.
On True Tori, viewers saw Spelling and McDermott meet with Dr. Ann Wexler before he came home from treatment. He admitted to having suicidal thoughts when he’d previously been in her office.
“We’re sitting here in the room where I had my breakdown,” McDermott said. “I’ve been looking at that crack in the window. I remember looking at that crack and while we were waiting for the EMTs, I was thinking, I’ve got a window of opportunity here to kick that out -- ‘cause it’s already broken -- and just dive out of it.
“I didn’t do it but I mention it to show how far I’d gone down the rabbit hole -- and that the only way out was for me to leave this earth.”
He confided to Spelling and Dr. Wexler, “The days leading up to my breakdown, I wanted to disappear. I just thought, this is it. You can’t get out of this. I just thought Tori deserves me to die. And I sit here today looking at the crack in the window and I know I will not take my life.”
McDermott said he’d