Prince Harry Recalls The Chilling Night A Pregnant Meghan Markle Told Him How She Was Going To Kill Herself
May 21 2021, Published 11:03 a.m. ET
It's almost impossible to imagine having to get dressed up, attend a public event and smile for hundreds of flashing cameras immediately after your pregnant wife tells you not only that she wants to kill herself, but also how she wants to kill herself.
But that's what Prince Harry had to do on January 16, 2019.
Sitting down with Oprah Winfrey for her new Apple TV docuseries, The Me You Can’t See, the 36-year-old "disgraced" royal offered his own detailed perspective on what his wife, 39-year-old Meghan Markle, revealed in a shocking confession just two months ago – that she had become so depressed while serving as Duchess of Sussex that she actively considered committing suicide.
Harry recalled the exact day his wife – who was carrying their first child, now-2-year-old son Archie – let him in on her deep, dark secret. They had been married for less than a year.
"Meghan decided to share with me the suicidal thoughts and the practicalities of how she was going to end her life," Harry told Oprah. "The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought. She hadn't 'lost it.' She wasn't 'crazy.' She wasn't self-medicating, be it through pills or through alcohol. She was absolutely sober. She was completely sane, yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up."
Prince Harry and Meghan Markle attend a charity event at the Royal Albert Hall in London, England, on January 16, 2019.
"The thing that stopped her from seeing it through," he added, "was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now be put in a position of losing another woman in my life – with a baby inside of her, our baby."
The two were scheduled to attend a charity event at the Royal Albert Hall in London that night. They had no choice but to attend.
Prince Harry and Meghan Markle attend a charity event at the Royal Albert Hall in London, England, on January 16, 2019.
"Because of the system that we were in and the responsibilities and the duties that we had, we had a quick cuddle and then we had to get changed to jump in a convoy with a police escort and drive to the Royal Albert Hall for a charity event," Harry explained. "Then step out into a wall of cameras and pretend as though everything's OK."