Catelynn Contemplated Crashing Into Pole With Daughter In Car: ‘But I Wouldn’t Do It’
April 24 2018, Updated 12:30 p.m. ET
Catelynn Lowell entered rehab on November 17 and January 17 for depression. On this week’s Teen Mom OG reunion, she revealed more chilling details on her suicidal thoughts.
Reunion show host Dr. Drew Pinsky sat down with Lowell and her husband Tyler Baltierra. While Lowell has been sober from marijuana, Baltierra admitted he still smokes the substance.
“I don’t smoke around her,” he said.
Lowell then cried while explaining her “emotional year.” She entered treatment twice when she began experiencing suicidal thoughts following a miscarriage.
“If I don’t go somewhere else today, I’m going to off myself and life would be 10 times better,” she said. “I could picture myself driving into an electrical pole off the road, praying it would kill me. But I wouldn’t do it because I had my kid in the backseat.”
Baltierra’s father Butch joined the stage via Skype from rehab. He told viewers that he has been sober from drugs and alcohol since November 14.
Ryan Edwards continued to refuse joining the stage with Maci Bookout because she is a “trigger for him.” Instead, he had his mother Jen and father Larry join him with his wife Mackenzie.
When Dr. Drew Pinsky asked if Edwards takes medication-assisted treatments, he responded, “I take them when I have a rough day because I don’t want to go back to rehab.”
Dr. Drew then made the conclusion that he doesn’t want to take a drug test for Bookout because opiates will show up in his system.
His wife fired at Dr. Drew, “Oh my god! Here you are sitting here talking about how the medication is great, then here you are on a whole different side saying a whole different argument.”
Dr. Drew snapped back, “Are you ready to listen to me? If he takes it as a doctor prescribes it and he were following directions then I would say he’s under doctor prescription. If he’s taking it ad-lib, I can’t vouch for that. “
Edwards then fired, “I just want things to stay the same today so I can leave here and not have a fight with Maci so I can go home and next weekend still get my son.”
When Bookout joined the stage with Edwards’ parents, she said how he didn’t want to talk to her because he doesn’t want to be “put on the spot.”
Edwards entered rehab for heroin abuse after he was caught on camera falling asleep at the wheel and slurring his words in May. Edwards has refused to let him see their son Bentley, 9, without his mother Jen’s supervision until he passes a drug test.
“It’s obvious to everyone something needs to happen to get a plan in place,” Bookout said. “Being able to trust Bentley is going to be safe.”
Also on the episode, Amber Portwood broke down in tears when her baby daddy Gary Shirley and his wife Kristina slammed her for only seeing her daughter Leah two to three times during the summer.
“I’m really hurt because the last thing I want is for people to look at me like that