Hug, 35, was found dead near a highway in Southern California on Wednesday. His death stunned the TV world and left everyone, including Bell, simply asking "Why?"

Crying hysterically, Bell, 35, told Breaking Celebrity News that she lived with Hug for the past two years. They knew each other for a year before they began dating. "We were the light of each other's life. Everyone, I mean everyone loved this man. We lived together in San Diego, in a beautiful condo," she said.

"This is beyond painful. We've been together for two amazing years.

"He was so misunderstood in many ways. People wanted him to be this Bachelorette star. That TV show was not even one percent of who he was.

"The whole TV stuff he did...that was a small part of him....he went on that show to travel and explore adventure."

The reality of Julien's death is at times almost impossible for Bell to grasp and she told Breaking Celebrity News: "He was drop dead gorgeous. I can't believe I'm saying 'he was.'" At that point, she dissolved into more tears.

Jennifer revealed that she and Julien were discussing marriage.

"We talked about getting married in Montauban, France," she told Breaking Celebrity News."He even spoke French to me. He spoke the language so eloquently and lovely.

"I had two of the best years of my life with him. They have been nothing but pure happiness to me.

"Julien was my life and I'm so devastat