Kelly Osbourne is finally coming around to the idea that she can be a gorgeous cover model like the best of them. Though she nearly fainted at the roomful of bikinis greeting her on arrival at her SHAPE magazine shoot, the reality star soon relaxed and opened up about her weight loss journey. Breaking Celebrity News has exclusive excerpts from her interview.

“I was called fat and ugly in the press almost my entire life,” Osbourne, 26, revealed to SHAPE. “I understand that being judged by others comes with the territory, but it broke my heart and ruined my self esteem. It sets you up to hate yourself in a huge way. I was so angry about the things people said about me. I truly believe it’s the main reason I turned to Vicodin and ended up in rehab three times. I just hated myself.”