Cyndi Lauper Opens Up About Her Dark Depression: I Wanted To Kill Myself
Sept. 11 2012, Published 1:00 p.m. ET
By Breaking Celebrity News Staff
Cyndi Lauper is opening up for the first time about the dark depression she sunk into following a career lull in the late eighties, admitting times got so tough she even considered suicide at one point, Breaking Celebrity News is reporting.
The pop icon, who’s now married to actor David Thornton, suffered her darkest moment after splitting from her long-term partner and manager David Wolff and talks about her ordeal in her shockingly honest new autobiography.
In the eye-opening memoir, the 59-year-old details her rise from poverty and a violent upbringing to pop stardom which saw her net more than 50 million records and 40 hit singles, and then her spiral into depression while living in a hotel room in New York City.
“I had come so far but felt like I had failed," she confesses. "I disappointed the record company because I didn’t come home with an armful of awards like they expected. It was always like that; it was never enough.
“It was such a dark time for me. When I was living in that hotel I was two steps off of that balcony.
"I would go to the studio and then sit in my dark room and drink vodka. I had to spend most of my time alone. I was grieving. I thought the sadness would never go away.
“The only thing that always prevented me from suicide is that I never wanted a headline to read, ‘Girl who wanted to have fun just didn’t’.”