By Debbie Emery - Breaking Celebrity News Reporter

Hot on the heels of her new memoir, Lauren Scruggs is continuing to open up about the depth of the physical and emotional horror she went through after walking into a small plane propeller last Christmas.

"I don't remember any of it. I think it was two weeks after my accident that I remember waking and asking, 'Why am I here?' I probably asked tons of times," the brave 25-year-old revealed in an interview in the new issue of People magazine.

But when she realized that both her left hand and eye had been removed by doctors, confusion turned into devastation and deep remorse. "I just wanted my hand back," she confessed.

As Breaking Celebrity News previously reported, despite the extent of her injuries, Scruggs was lucky to be alive after walking into a plane propeller near Dallas, Texas, following a sight-seeing flight looking at Christmas lights. Lauren suffered horrific injuries to her entire left side as well as a fractured skull, broken left collarbone and brain injuries.

"It was months before she really knew what happened," explained mom, Cheryl Scruggs, while her dad Jeff revealed: "In the hospital while she was still recovering she would called everyone 'Nugget.'"

While the Christian family tried their hardest to be upbeat, the model and fashion blogger went through her fair share of dark and depressed days.

"I went through a period of anger after getting off my pain medication – then reality hits you. I just wanted my hand back," she revealed.

"My doctor told me that losing your hand is like losing someone in your family. Because it's a part of you."

Thanks to eleven months of recovery and rehab after being fitted with a state-of-the-art prosthetic hand and a false eye, Lauren is now becoming remarkably independent and overcoming huge hurdles every day.

"I learned to